Forgiveness in an ambulance

My wife Karen  calls 911 yesterday because I can barely make it to the bedroom with weakness in my legs and difficulty breathing.  I nearly collapse. My ongoing sinus infection for over three months causes an upper respiratory wheeze.
The protracted bug occurs after having a flu, which becomes a sinus infection and a respiratory infection.
A series of what can only be described as God events happens. First, a paramedics supervisor who just says he “happens” to be in the area arrives. The Lord gives him a first-hand glimpse of what I look like before the ambulance arrives. The EMT supervisor listens well. He immediately gives me oxygen.
Then, the next God event happens. The parmamedics arrive. The EMT supervisor tells them I am cold to the touch and sweaty with a flushed red face.
I am loaded into the ambulance. I ask God to give me a forgiving heart for the horrible way I have been treated by some doctors and nurses. in the days and years before this day there are those in the medical profession who make it clear they don’t want to have to deal with a person with a complicated medical history like mine.
The ambulance arrives at the hospital.
My nurse takes my temperature. I have hypothermia.The ER attending physician tells me I am quite ill.   She suspects a combination of some bacterial and mostly a viral infection. She stresses that I will have to take it easy for quite a while. I am on a decongestant to get rid of the blockage in my sinuses.
My nurse feels how cold my hands are. She gets me a heated blanket twice while I am at the hospital.
Before I leave  I fill out a survey in which I write:
“Exceptional care from Dr. Carter  and all nursing staff. “
Forgiveness is such an easy word to say, but far harder to actually do. It is as I let go of all of my anger and hurt, that I am treated with professionalism and caring.
But I give the glory to God because He called me to life-changing and healing forgiveness in an ambulance.
Thanks be to God. Thanks be to God.

2 responses to “Forgiveness in an ambulance

    • Hi Michele

      Thanks for your prayers. I managed to get out for 20 minutes to see part of the Christmas Eve service at our church, St. Paul’s Presbyterian in Englehart, northern Ontario. The children’s “Carol of the bells” was charming and spirit-lifting.

      Challenging days and months ahead as this darn bug still has a hold on me after four months. Please keep Karen and I in your prayers. We hope I will get to see a number of specialists in the new year such areas as neurology, immunology and allergy. The latest decline in my mobility has a definite connection with my mast cell proliferation auto immune condition called systemic mastocytosis.

      I got worn out trying to do too much. I’ll need to take a much more balanced approach about what I challenge my body to do. Life. It indeed is a balancing act for all of us.

      Somehow, God is going to be glorified through all of this. In the new year I may well end up working for the Canadian Mental Health Association in peer support being a facilitator of positive change in people’s lives. A social worker is encouraging me that I have a gift in counselling others. She says it’s who she sees I am within.

      I will be opening a part-time Christian counseling practice while i work away at my M.Th. thesis through South African Theological Seminary and M. Div. studies with Trinity College in the University of Toronto.

      I will undertake part-time studies, not full-time. I’m not ready for that yet. And Karen, who will be studying with me, agrees we should enjoy our time working towards our M. Div. It’s not a race. We seek to get closer to God’s heart and His will for our life through this journey.

      I am hoping and believing for higher levels of health. More people are stepping forward to advocate for me to receive better health care. A receptionist at our local medical centre in Englehart, northern Ontario, had me fill out a patient satisfaction survey. As she saw in her heart the extent of my struggle to get a doctor to accept me as a regular patient, she said she would put me on a list for the doctor coming to this area in January.

      Please let me know how I can best pray for you.

      Merry Christmas!


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